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heres my mini story.

i was born in kentucky on march 28, 1990. life was pretty normal up until i turned 11, 12. i went to this party with a friend, if i could go back and change that desicion, i dont think i would. well, i met this girl there.. 14 years old, named Lara. she was so beautiful. long white blonde hair, the bluest eyes ever and a smile that made your heart turn to mush. i dont know why she chose me, a 12 yr old boy who'd just moved there to NC, but she did. now, the next part is a blur, lol. i dont know how it happened, but all i do know is that we ended up on someones bed having sex. it was my first time (cuz honestly, what 12 yr old boy manages to get laid?) but im not sure about her.. it just.. never came up... and now ill never know. afterwards, things were.. awkward)... and she left. i went back to chill with my friends, who knew SOMETHING was up.. i was entirely too quiet. well, lets skip ahead a bit. over the past 2, 3 weeks, i saw her around school but she avoided me. needless to say, i was hurt by her rejection. but i was soon to find out. about 6 weeks after it happened, she approached me before school and told me she was pregnant. i freaked. i was only 12, she was only 14, what the hell were we gonna do? our parents would kill us. not to mention, i'd just helped her to become a statistic. we were scared as hell to tell our parents, but we did so. i told my mom alone, but i made damn sure i was with her when she told hers. her father was a mean son of a b***h and yeah, i was 12 and he was 32, but id try to protect her if he even FLINCHED towards her. and yeah, our parents were PISSED. we made plans to give our baby up for adoption, our hearts breaking a little. but when the day came when lara gave birth.. 9 hours in labor, our little girl Anna was born at 3:20 am on March 21st. she was my early birthday gift. looking into her little face, i just couldnt give her up. she was MINE. lara still wanted to give her up, but in the end, i kept her. it was hard, and i had no life, but i regret NOTHING. i love her to the depths of my soul. with my moms hellp, i raised her. she looked just like her mom. -sigh- When Anna was a year old.. Lara took her own life. i was devasted. i loved her as much as i could, but she was tortured and teased by the other kids at school and she just couldnt handle it. i was so pissed at her. she'd left me.. she'd been weak.. she never even came to me for help.. i wouldve held her, kicked the other kids asses. but no.. she didnt love me... i think she blamed me.. which, i guess, she had reason for. lets fast-forward a bit. 2 years ago, when i was 17, Annas maternal grandparents filed for full custody of her.. and won. i was 17, no job, barely passing school. then, they moved to florida. so ******** far away and they barely send me pictures. my heart breaks a little every day she calls and i hear her voice. she's a ballerina now, and so damn proud of herself, just like i am. she's 7 years old now... now, recently, one of my friends got pregnant by another friend on mine and, upon finding out, ran away. i searched for her bc i got a phone call from her one day sayin she was pregnant. well, i managed to convince her to come home. the boy left her when she told him. i was there by her side the entire time and she, in the end, left me take care of her baby girl Sage. she was born march 10rd at 9:19 am. i was the one there in the delivery room, not her father. i took care of her for 7 months. was gonna try to adopt her. but about a week ago... her parents approached me and took her back. they were married now, wanted her back... and so they stole my heart. if it was for anna's calls and the fact that i know my daughter still needs me, i would no longer be here. theres my mini story.. so if u ever wonder why im pissed at the world... now u know.