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	Looking into the world of possibilities Thoughts, secrets, lying to myself, and my own muddled form of creativity so of course there are a few poems thrown into the mix. isn't it so goddamn special?


I am sure no one remembers me, and cares for me anymore (assuming they did to begin with)... And though I was nothing but an anonymous long distance 'friend" to anyone here... and them to me... I feel so sad to think they don't even remember me... I had obessions with you people... and always anxiously waited for certain people's replies... I don't know. But... most of all I am confused... why am I so saddened by this? One could easily say it was all meaningless... I don't want it to be though... So what if I haven't met any of you in person? At least I enjoyed myself... But I hate that my so called friends and my friendship can so easily be forgotten. For if I cant build a lasting relationship here... what will I do if the love of my life has to move away after all? Maybe I am simply a bottle of angst... as always... Lesigh. I wonder if anyone would read this... I really do. Unlikely... Very much so... Though I'd like to hear a beautiful lie... that they waited months for my reply... Like I did for... I wont reveal names... Meh. They wont realize anyway. And they have all changed their usernames so often I dont stand a chance or truly remembering who is who... and what was said... and how I felt then. Id probably feel differant now. But somehow this site made me happy... needy... distracted? I am always distracted... im just being nastalgic considering this was a deep one.. a deep deep hope of an escape. I dont even remember... Maybe my nastalgia over NOTHING... is what saddens me... ♥ I say I hate you, so why do I smile whenever I think about you .. ♥ blacK-delilahS · Sun Jan 24, 2010 @ 08:16am · 0 Comments


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♥ I say I hate you, so why do I smile whenever I think about you .. ♥

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