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I need to live life on my own terms. I am not living for anyone but myself. I want to go out there and ******** enjoy the limited time I have on this earth. We all have a little less that 100 years on this planet and I am sure in hell not wasting mine or waiting around and letting it pass me by. I know for sure that I need to get school out of my way so I can have a career and a real life. I know I have been complaining about it for a while but I have realized that I become stronger and smarter every single day so I am not going to waste this. It is going to be rough, I will not lie.


I am sick of being dependant on others and I want my own space and my own time. I want to be able to breathe and think. I want to be me. I want to be the smart, strong, talented and charming gentlewoman I always was. I’m not giving up and I will never ever give up. I might b***h and complain about stuff and say I hate it and I give up but if you know me well you know I am not going to give up. I might really want to quit but I know when I need to stick with something. I am ten times tougher than most people think I am. I have been through hell and back, I can do it again if I have to. I can take a ******** punch. I can get right back up. I am so sick of this paranoia that I am willing to fight for myself and my future. It is my ******** life and nothing can hold it hostage.


I highly thank those who support me and help me. I love the people who are cool and teach me new things or help me when I need them most. I will be sure to return the favor. I know I can do this. If people don’t believe me, they are a serious waste of my time and energy. If someone (teachers, peers) does not support me, trust me or treat me like the smart person I am they can bite me. I don’t need them dragging me down. I have been put through way to much in my past to even give half a though as to what people think.


So my point is, life is ******** tough. It is going to knock you on you a** sometimes, you just need to get right back up.