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I guess I'm never going to win at anything. I just can't seem to do anything right these days.

Now it seems that I'm going to be going though relationship issues. I been noticing that things haven't been going all that well. Now it's just getting worse with the schule switch. I know that it's going to be hard to do things but we really didn't do things when we were on the sleeping schule.

I can't help that I'm doing better being awake durning the day. Now Atleast I'm up for 12+ hours a day. I just couldn't take sleeping most of the time. Now I doing things. Like cleaning for 8 hours. I really enjoyed that.

I now the switch is not the ideal thing and I know it's making my hubbie more depressed. But I can't take being depressed any more. I needed the change. So now he can't call me at 2am anymore. We still get to see each other the same about of time. And it's not my fault that he wants to keep himself lock up in the room all the time. I happen to be enjoying having other places to be within the house. I like going out in the living room to watch tv or play a game, or having the computer in the office. This is what I wanted and needed. This move was for change and that's what I'm doing. But this all is making my hubbie sad and depressed.

So what if I don't wan to do anything sexual, it's not like it's my fault. My body is a little messed up right now and plus I'm a little tired of it. I'm also tried of the nonstop asking to do something sexual. It's everyday and then some. I'm just not really to be sexual again, I guess. Being depressed and having my body get all messed up and confused has kinda put sexual thing on a back burner.

I just need time to get thing straightened out.