Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People:
(but don't say their name)
1. That football game. It rained. :] I remember that. And Jessi, Allie, and I danced and laughed and screamed and basically just acted like the idiots we are. Oh, our darling Allie Allie. Stop being so serious babe. :]
2. That football game. I knew what I was doing. And I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done it. I got your number on purpose. I started this on purpose. But I didn't expect it to end this way. And all the same, I did. But, for better words, not to this extent. I just simply knew, that whatever we could or would have, would end. Just like it always did before.
3. You just don't understand, you're so caught up in the structure of life.
4. You know, I'm sorry. And I've said it before. What? Three, four, five times? And you don't seem to care. Because you're so damn infatuated, you'd rather believe them, over someone who used to be your best friend. And that's fine.
5. Hobo darling, you keep betraying me. And lying. And talking s**t and stuff. But you know what. You apologized. And that means everything to me. Because then you told me the truth and everything you said and why you said it to whoever you said it. You gave me the truth that no one will. I love you to death and beyond. And next year's gonna be s**t without you. Who am I gonna sing "DON'T YOU WANT ME BABY" through the halls with everyday after whatever class? xD Or go to the mall and ask "Yes, what is Victoria's secret?"? Or get told "GET THE HELL OFF THE TRACK" by some old guy?? Or point out each other's "Egg Fryers" with?? ~Happy sigh~ When you've been best friends for a life time, there is no such thing as the word enemies. =]
6. You know what you need to tell them? You need to tell them "Yeah. I am gay. And I'm proud of that. And if you don't quite bothering me about it or anything else, my friend Katie's gonna kick your ******** a** next year". =] Because I will. You deserve better.
7. You know that you'll always be one of my favorites dummy dummy face. :] But sometimes, I do need an insight to what your thinking to hold on.
8. Your eyes are open, but your peripherals aren't working.
9. We're being cautious. Yes, that I realize, but what’s the bottom line here? I feel like we're floating around. We need a concrete surface to build whatever it is we are or are going to be off of. And somehow, so many questions that I seem to be terrified to ask you have formed in my head. For instance, What does the word lovie mean to you now?
10. I think you have a feeling that I might stop being your friend just because they want me to. That maybe I'll leave you in the dark because those two want nothing to do with you. But you know what I'm going to say if they ask me to? I'm going to say ******** you and walk away. Because as my friends, they shouldn't ask that of me. If they were truly my friends, they wouldn't. And hopefully, they won't. :] Because I'm not about to stop helping one person to help two, when I could so much easier help all three at the same time. :]
Nine things about myself:
1. I don't like dodging a subject that intrigues me.
2. I seem to see things obviously different from the people that surround me.
3. When I like someone, I get to know them first. In my eyes, there is nothing to discuss unless we're friends first.
4. I think like no other. It seems that is all I'm ever doing.
5. My best friends are my life, so boys if your thinking your going to be more important than them, oh you got it wrong. You live on a level right below. Some make it to equal ground. Which is where I have a habit of getting myself in to trouble most
6. I doodle. Sometimes, random eligible things.
7. Animals are better than people. With me, that's it. I have three dogs and two of them are my life. Particularly my Frankie Bear, who is the best listener/living room pillow ever. :3
8. French annoys the hell out of me, but I love it. :]
9. People typically take to me. I don't why. Or how. But, I just get along with most of the population that I know. :]
Eight ways to win my heart:
1. Be honest. Even if it hurts.
2. Be willing.
3. Don't care so much about what others think.
4. Have fun with whatever you do.
5. Make me smile like no other.
6. Some sort of artist would be splendid.
7. Clever people are in fact the greatest. Listen as much as you talk. Have an open mind.
8. Make me feel certain. Cure my unsure mind and make it up. Sometimes I need someone there to tell me the difference between right and wrong and what I should or shouldn't do.
Seven things that cross my mind a lot:
1. Future.
2. This one guy that really shouldn't anymore.
3. What tragedy am I going to get myself into next?
4. School.
5. Friends.
6. Music and Nature.
7. Things I miss like no other.
Six things I do before I fall asleep:
1. Text
2. Think
3. Wish
4. Shower
5. Homework
6. Lay there for hours trying to figure people, places, things out. Especially these last few months and you.
Five people who mean a lot:
(in no order whatsoever, not including God)
1. Jasmine
2. Jessi
3. Donni
4. Kalab
5. Brendan
Four things you're wearing right now:
1. Undergarments! =D
2. Shorts
3. Shirt
4.
a stoic expression
Three songs that you listen to often:
1. Weightless
2. Ohio is for lovers
3. Decode
Two things you want to do before you die:
1. Tell someone everything that's on my mind, then ask for the help I need.
2. Write a book
One confession:
1. I change constantly. Sometimes I can't even keep up with myself. I think people realize this, but maybe it just doesn't register. But whether or not, I want to get everything worked out.
(but don't say their name)
1. That football game. It rained. :] I remember that. And Jessi, Allie, and I danced and laughed and screamed and basically just acted like the idiots we are. Oh, our darling Allie Allie. Stop being so serious babe. :]
2. That football game. I knew what I was doing. And I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done it. I got your number on purpose. I started this on purpose. But I didn't expect it to end this way. And all the same, I did. But, for better words, not to this extent. I just simply knew, that whatever we could or would have, would end. Just like it always did before.
3. You just don't understand, you're so caught up in the structure of life.
4. You know, I'm sorry. And I've said it before. What? Three, four, five times? And you don't seem to care. Because you're so damn infatuated, you'd rather believe them, over someone who used to be your best friend. And that's fine.
5. Hobo darling, you keep betraying me. And lying. And talking s**t and stuff. But you know what. You apologized. And that means everything to me. Because then you told me the truth and everything you said and why you said it to whoever you said it. You gave me the truth that no one will. I love you to death and beyond. And next year's gonna be s**t without you. Who am I gonna sing "DON'T YOU WANT ME BABY" through the halls with everyday after whatever class? xD Or go to the mall and ask "Yes, what is Victoria's secret?"? Or get told "GET THE HELL OFF THE TRACK" by some old guy?? Or point out each other's "Egg Fryers" with?? ~Happy sigh~ When you've been best friends for a life time, there is no such thing as the word enemies. =]
6. You know what you need to tell them? You need to tell them "Yeah. I am gay. And I'm proud of that. And if you don't quite bothering me about it or anything else, my friend Katie's gonna kick your ******** a** next year". =] Because I will. You deserve better.
7. You know that you'll always be one of my favorites dummy dummy face. :] But sometimes, I do need an insight to what your thinking to hold on.
8. Your eyes are open, but your peripherals aren't working.
9. We're being cautious. Yes, that I realize, but what’s the bottom line here? I feel like we're floating around. We need a concrete surface to build whatever it is we are or are going to be off of. And somehow, so many questions that I seem to be terrified to ask you have formed in my head. For instance, What does the word lovie mean to you now?
10. I think you have a feeling that I might stop being your friend just because they want me to. That maybe I'll leave you in the dark because those two want nothing to do with you. But you know what I'm going to say if they ask me to? I'm going to say ******** you and walk away. Because as my friends, they shouldn't ask that of me. If they were truly my friends, they wouldn't. And hopefully, they won't. :] Because I'm not about to stop helping one person to help two, when I could so much easier help all three at the same time. :]
Nine things about myself:
1. I don't like dodging a subject that intrigues me.
2. I seem to see things obviously different from the people that surround me.
3. When I like someone, I get to know them first. In my eyes, there is nothing to discuss unless we're friends first.
4. I think like no other. It seems that is all I'm ever doing.
5. My best friends are my life, so boys if your thinking your going to be more important than them, oh you got it wrong. You live on a level right below. Some make it to equal ground. Which is where I have a habit of getting myself in to trouble most
6. I doodle. Sometimes, random eligible things.
7. Animals are better than people. With me, that's it. I have three dogs and two of them are my life. Particularly my Frankie Bear, who is the best listener/living room pillow ever. :3
8. French annoys the hell out of me, but I love it. :]
9. People typically take to me. I don't why. Or how. But, I just get along with most of the population that I know. :]
Eight ways to win my heart:
1. Be honest. Even if it hurts.
2. Be willing.
3. Don't care so much about what others think.
4. Have fun with whatever you do.
5. Make me smile like no other.
6. Some sort of artist would be splendid.
7. Clever people are in fact the greatest. Listen as much as you talk. Have an open mind.
8. Make me feel certain. Cure my unsure mind and make it up. Sometimes I need someone there to tell me the difference between right and wrong and what I should or shouldn't do.
Seven things that cross my mind a lot:
1. Future.
2. This one guy that really shouldn't anymore.
3. What tragedy am I going to get myself into next?
4. School.
5. Friends.
6. Music and Nature.
7. Things I miss like no other.
Six things I do before I fall asleep:
1. Text
2. Think
3. Wish
4. Shower
5. Homework
6. Lay there for hours trying to figure people, places, things out. Especially these last few months and you.
Five people who mean a lot:
(in no order whatsoever, not including God)
1. Jasmine
2. Jessi
3. Donni
4. Kalab
5. Brendan
Four things you're wearing right now:
1. Undergarments! =D
2. Shorts
3. Shirt
4.
a stoic expression
Three songs that you listen to often:
1. Weightless
2. Ohio is for lovers
3. Decode
Two things you want to do before you die:
1. Tell someone everything that's on my mind, then ask for the help I need.
2. Write a book
One confession:
1. I change constantly. Sometimes I can't even keep up with myself. I think people realize this, but maybe it just doesn't register. But whether or not, I want to get everything worked out.
