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lol wow i just had one of my best friends uterly tell me im useless i have no meaning im pathetic and everything he says i cant help anyone and i never have maybe i should deal with my own problems says im making a fake version lyin 2 u all ..and u know what hes probably right about everything i mean what do i really do i sit there and talk pretend im all smart about everything but honestly theres nothing that intrests me in your problems i avoid my own cause im 2 pathetic and scared to face them im just a ******** coward i act the way i do cause in all honestly im just a quiet a*****e but i act loud i act perverted just to make everyone smile but its all a lie i dont drink i barely smoke weed im nothing but a fake basically my hole life ive tried eing who everyone thout i was i cant even remember why ii was probably just scared youd all relize im ******** useless im even to chicken s**t to kill my self ...and i lied my father isent dead he just thout i was so pathetic that when i was 1 years old he gave my mom a choice me or him she picked me but shes always reminding mme about how she made the wrong choice there u ******** happy thats the truth about everything the reason i cant even cry is im so ******** selfish i tricked my own mind into believing my lies just who do ******** do i think i am thats all i can really say i hope this note brings all of u to relize im ******** useless yo kennedy u were right so be happy about it im sorry i made u anbd js hate me so much but i guess i cant disagfree and no i wont deal with my problems i mean the worst part is i still cant figure them out apparently ive ruined alot of the times we hang out so ya im sorry i hope u guys will forgive me one day and vivi honestly im noit sure what 2 say