I think I'm going crazy. I've been home all day for about 3 days only gone out once for two hours for church and that was just today.
Well I've gone this ridiculous thoughts like insanely weird I've told my mom and she's laughed in my face. But okay i have a theory about my life;
What if I'm not really 14, but an old lonely crazy lady?
Like i really don't live with my parents i don't have family but in my head i do? What if everyday instead of going to school like i do, i walk to the school and sit in the lawn and just stare into the campus and in my own mind i think i really am what i think i am? and the neighbors upstairs see me walking home from "school" and think "oh great the old lady is home, i wonder when she's gonna die" What if my actual house is just old and infested with rats and i use drugs so i don't snap back into reality? What if I'm not even here? in my head i am but what if this isn't even being typed at this very moment maybe all I've done in my life was just imagined by me, sitting out there watching these people walk by and make up stories with them and me in them.
So either
a) I'm paralized and i don't know it
b) i'm right
c) i'm just having a mental breakdown and should stop telling people my weird allegations.
d) I should get some help.
CRAZY STUFF MAN!
Well I've gone this ridiculous thoughts like insanely weird I've told my mom and she's laughed in my face. But okay i have a theory about my life;
What if I'm not really 14, but an old lonely crazy lady?
Like i really don't live with my parents i don't have family but in my head i do? What if everyday instead of going to school like i do, i walk to the school and sit in the lawn and just stare into the campus and in my own mind i think i really am what i think i am? and the neighbors upstairs see me walking home from "school" and think "oh great the old lady is home, i wonder when she's gonna die" What if my actual house is just old and infested with rats and i use drugs so i don't snap back into reality? What if I'm not even here? in my head i am but what if this isn't even being typed at this very moment maybe all I've done in my life was just imagined by me, sitting out there watching these people walk by and make up stories with them and me in them.
So either
a) I'm paralized and i don't know it
b) i'm right
c) i'm just having a mental breakdown and should stop telling people my weird allegations.
d) I should get some help.
CRAZY STUFF MAN!
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2 bad i'm a year late to tell you this... :/