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Nothing. Nothing is wrong. Nothing
is bothering me. My every thing is
nothing, I am nothing. So nothing is
wrong, nothing. I'm just hollow, empty,
there is nothing within me at all.
Making me nothing at all. I feel nothing,
but pain and loneliness. I'm empty,
cold, and alone. Could you imagine
how that feels? Yes, no, you don't care.
Your every word is a lie, and every
deed is an act. Want me gone?
Want me dead? I do, I don't, I'm
nothing so I don't know. No need
to lie, lets tell the truth. You wish
to use and abuse me, and I don't
care. Hate me, beat me, cut me,
bruse me, come on kill me! Kill me,
do it! No, no you won't, you can't.
Tell me to smile, tell me to laugh, all
you want is everything that I am,
that I was. But I'm nothing now, I
am not but a ghost frozen and empty.
Nothing but a shadow grasping fruitlessly
at what it once was. I want to feel,
to care, to be cared for, but I don't.
Leave me empty, leave me nothing,
because I can't take the pain of
feeling. Not alone, not again, death's
cold embrace is a better place. So
go ahead and try to break me, try
to kill me. Just know there is nothing
there to break and kill but an empty
body with no soul and a frozen heart.
Once yes I was something, I was
someone, but not anymore. I am
tainted, I am nothing, I am no one.
No one at all with nothing wrong,
nothing...but everything...