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that last journal was a load of bull and I'm shocked that no one could figure it out. I want to explain myself but perhaps I don't deserve to b justified. I'm human though and I cant just through myself out there to lashed without an excuse.
you know my love of t or d. it may b an addiction. maybe I should get help. anyway, it happens that I can't resist a dare. almost a year ago I was playing t or d with some real life friends (people who r no long friends) and this was a game of high stakes t or d, where you had to tell a very personal secret to the others so that if you reneged on a dare they could spread the secret around school. my dare was to take over an account made for me by one of the others and play it as though I was really that person for one year. I couldn't tell anyone and if I did then the dare was failed and my secret got told. no one other than the two people I played with know about this and so bugging my school friends wont help.
so anyway I've been on this account for about ten months and most of the time I just ignored the account but then I found out that's against the rules. so about a week ago I had to start playing for real. but then I made some friends....long term lies, especailly malicious lies, have never sat well with me and I've begun to feel very badly.
so here it is. kuma, I'm so srry because you told me stuff and I want to keep listening to ur epic stories. and I tried to approache you as my real self but I guess you ignored my friend request. (hot sauce shots)
and rebel I'm srry because u actually thought u were pregnant, and u happen to b a very nice person. (you sat on tycen too remember)
here's the kicker, the truth. r u ready?
u all always thought I was flirting with girls and I just happen to b very nice and comfortable around them. the way I act has NEVER been interpreted as flirting before.
rebel can't possibly be pregnant because I happen to be straight, not to mention I completely lack the necessary parts.
if you still heven't understood what I'm trying to say then look up my real account. it's rhianaemebr12.
look that user up and please don't hate me. oh, and I'm srry this was such a long read. I have a tendency to ramble.