I hate that feeling you get in the pit of your stomach when something isn't quite right. You know, its like the feeling you used to get when you knew your dad was waiting for you at home with the belt. Busted. Or when you walked up to a group of friends only to hear them talking about you. Its like that, only the kind of grown up version, where you really don't have a good reason for it other than the vast amount of things that go wrong every day all over the world, and you were made aware of them because you're a good American citizen who keeps up on world news.
Being an abnormally paranoid person, I get that feeling a lot. HOWEVER!!! *Disclaiming injecture* I do not keep up with the news at all. I know that Israel bombed some people. . .using weapons I can only assume they got from us. I know that probably means the Obama administration (who was sworn in earlier today I believe) will have an entirely new stance on American relations with Israel. I know the current economic situation in America, and I know that most of our policies are going to change, in one form or another, over the next four to eight years.
While all of that is most certainly on my mind, it is not responsible for the current gnawing sensation I feel within my stomach. The current gnawing feeling is linked to a great many things NOT very serious to anyone. . .hardly even to myself, but all very irritating and painful nonetheless.
I think the biggest issue I have with the chewing of my stomach lining, other than the possibility for ulcers, is that I can never be sure if its my problem or the problem of someone else I'm ulcering over. I've gnawed for a very long time without ever really thinking about why I gnawed.
I'm fairly certain half the reason I stayed out of every kind of trouble as a child has to do with the fact that I always felt like I was getting caught, even though I was never doing anything wrong. I always had that gnawing sensation. . .
More on this later. . .Thanks again Gaia.
Thalion Aegawaen Community Member 
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