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People dont seem to get me at all, when I'm depressed all anyone ever does is say "dont be sad your awesome" or something like that and I'm sick of it I dont feel awesome I feel like s**t so if you see me depressed try cheering me up or something because continualy telling me im awesome is making it worse. Also every single girl I meet says im "cute" when they see my picture...... some of you might think that I sound whiney but when you are only called cute it makes you feel like thats all you will ever be. I try to be happy I try to make my freinds worry about me as little as possible but if I continue to keep these things locked inside I will most likely die from all the pain I feel day after day. Some of you most likely now think that I'm being a loser or a whiner but if you were to put yourself in my shoes you then you would understand. Also some of you might be thinking why does this journal even matter there are plenty of more interesting journals out there and I'm not asking for you to care about this journal all I ask is that you see how much pain im going through every day but whatever It doesnt matter anyway people are just going to keep living their lives whether or not I find peace or not. well thats about it so have fun with your life because mine is practicly over Bye crying emo crying emo crying