Yea... if only today was just any other Tuesday night... but it's not. It's the Tuesday before Christmas. There's no school to take my mind off of things, there's no one for me to talk to, and there's no release of everything when i see him; because i won't see him. We were talking about getting together to hang out, but I doubt it will happen. For some reason, i think he has the power to take the weight off of my shoulders... I wish i knew why he seems to have that power over me... I think right now i would dye for one of his hugs right now... lol (yes, i know i said "dye", it was on purpose)
But I was able to talk to kyle r tonight. I liked him right after i met kyle f a few years ago. i got to really know kyle r while i was dating the older brother of one of his friends. He was just such a great guy to me, and i found myself falling for him after not too long. We used to talk on the phone late into the night, about anything and everything, and sometimes about nothing. We shared songs that we both liked and we used to cuddle at school and i was just so comfortable with him. I loved it, and i think at one point i loved him. We hadn't talked in over a year until tonight, when he IMed me on AIM. Now i miss the way things used to be. And it also reminds me of how things are right now, and that i will get over kyle f; it's just gonna take some time...
smile So this has done nothing for me... lol. It hasn't helped, but i guess I should be happy that it also hasn't hurt. lol.
until another evening. *bows*
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