Maybe this will help all of you understand to who I really am. I will take this entry and continue it everytime I think of something new. So here it goes. I'm self contious yet I don't give a damn about what people think of me. I promised to kill myself when I'm 25 if I don't find love. I like to think I'm complicated but I think I'm so simple. I love being emotional but I like my mask of solitude. I sometimes think gravity doesn't exist and I can fly. I sometimes wish that no one else but my friends and I were on earth. Other times I wish people wouldn't notice me so I can slide past them. I fear reality. I'm scared of heights but want to fly so badly. I'm afraid of love. I push people away once they know me to much. I'm still searching for a purpose in life. I like to think I'm creative. I want to be cold and harsh. I want to enjoy life and travel with a dance/theatre troupe. I hate life. I love living and taking in every breath of air. I love the night for it's promise to keep me hidden. I'm lazy. I sometimes think I'm dead. I never have really loved/liked people my age. I enjoy having friends surround me but try not to show it. I want to jump off the Empire state building just for fun. I want to move away. So maybe this will help for a while.
Techno Ice · Mon Oct 17, 2005 @ 03:41am · 7 Comments |