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so many times i have had someone who said that they would help me... it never has happened. i dont think it has ever even made one full day of some one really trying to help. people will talk to me over the computer but when it comes to something in person, they never seem to be able to do anything. a part of me wants to stop, but a bigger part of me doesnt want to stop. i have no one who will truly help me through this. i guess no one has the guts to talk to me in person. i dont know why, but they just cant. i dont really get it, they seem so determined to try to help when they talk to me on here, but once its in person they dont even bring it up. im so confused. people say that they wont give up on me, yet it has happened with everyone so far. i cant keep taking this... its not fair to me to start to dream of some really helping me, then it gets ripped from my hands when they just cant talk. i dont get it...