It's actually interesting rereading every entry in ur own journal, cuz u see side of u that u don't remember sounding like. its funny and weird. like i used to be really positive in some of my journal entries, but comparing that to my blogs on myspace i've been very negative. huh, we don't just change in our physical appearence, we also change in our attitude. part of me wishes i could go back to the postive attitude 24/7 but that's my childhood. now i must gain an acceptance of this potential attitude that i have, that will change as i get older.
heart Not much has gone on with me just the so-called player in my last blog was my very true first love and broke my heart big time. but looking back at wut him and i had, it feels like he didn't deserve me at that time. mainly he did deserve me a little but not as much as it should have been. i mean don't get me wrong, i'm not saying no one deserves me, i just think that at this time he doesn't know what he wants or needs cuz in college u wanna experience everything. and i guess to him he just wanted some fun, not a real relationship. idk, i'm wrong and yes i'm still in love with him. but it's better to experence more in life and see wut else is out there, cuz one never knows who they're meant to be with. part me hopes that he is the one, but for either one of us to know we need to experience life. love is fickle, it always changes. but always pray that ur the lucky one who finds that one person out of a bunch of other people. love makes u feel lucky, not winning the lottery. heart
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