while most ppl spend their Saturdays doing something
Ive been home all day by myself talking to Kat and Ivan
there's nothing to do in my house
my parents are uptight and I'm not allowed to do anything with my bf
I'm not allowed to group date til I'm 15
and I'm not allowed to date til 16
oh its torture
pure agonizing torture
my mom says she "men only want one thing and your too young to know how to make the right decisions" "i dont want to put you in a position where you something might happen, girls your age dont need to be getting pregnant or doing anything"
she wont even give me the chance to screw up
she just assumes i will
i dont get it, she really didnt say anything when i was with rusty but with trent shes all over what i do
i think she sees how im getting older and im changing
how im not a little girl anymore
oh i wish she'd leave me be
she thinks that if i was left alone with a guy even ONCE
that id ******** him or something
god shes so ******** annoying
shes the ******** reason im depressed and goth
Trent's the reason im not emo
but still i have to listen to her
to be alone
to be alone
to sit alone
to think alone
to act alone
to breathe alone
to live alone
to die alone
to be alone
i want nothing more than to be alone
not with a guy
not with trent
not with anyone
not with myself
just alone
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