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: mad XxXxXx::Take another little peice of my heart now baby you know you've got it if it makes you feel good: mad XxXxXx::
marg. So I'm watching the news and they're going on about how gas prices are likely to rise to about 5 dollars. That's ******** fantastic. now I'm going to see Kyle even less than I do already. We're going broke, and it's stressing my Dad out and he's being assholic, I mean, it's understandable and all, but it sucks. So i'll be seeing less and less of Kyle. This sucks. This is my last year with him around all the time, why can't it just be perfect? That's all I ******** ask. Now with Gas prices rising, Dad is going to be less and less inclined to bring me to see him, since he's all defiant about driving there already, and it's at 3 dollars.
As for friends. I don't really miss many of them anymore, becuase hell, they don't miss me! I miss Johnny Santore, Pere(NERD!),Vera, Ronnie, Nadia, Natie, George, Dee, Eddie, Catherine, and Of course morg and Caz. I mean, the derbians talk to me as best they can, and though I wish to see them more, I don't really miss them, since I don't spend time with them in the first place. As for Masuk, I only really hang out with Mick, Erich, Nik, and Jackie. So I dunno. I think I'm moving past being forgotten, or at least as best as I can.
My birthday's coming up soon, and again I'll probably be alone for it. I was going to ahve a party, but it's not going to happen. (sorry guys) So I think I'll just go up to Sue's or something and play with the baby and Sophia or something (I'll have pictures soon!) My anniversary is soon too, which makes me excited. I made Kyle a bunch of stuff, and I wrote him a letter, but I feel bad because I have no money to get him anything, and we can't afford it right now. I know he says it doesnt matter, but to me, it does. -_-. As for halloween. Monday night! What the crap is that!? That really makes me mad. I dunno. its just like ahdbksjahd!!! *kill*.
In other news, I'm going to ******** fail algebra, my teacher is such a d**k! I understood all the stuff in class and I'm doing all the homework and stuff, but I've failed both tests! And it's not just me! The entire first two periods (it's as far as I know) have both failed both his tests. Obviuosly he's not doing his job as a teacher. I'm getting a very low C- in his class right now, and I'd be getting an F if it weren't for homework grades. but now he wants to cut out all the homework and grade us just on tests. ******** that! Another week of this, and I'm moving out of his class. I know Lauren, Jeff, Chris, and a lot of other kids are thinking the same thing. I'm pissed. I really wanted to do good this year!
And it keeps coming back to me that this year was supposed to be perfect. maybe I'm just being dellusional or something, but Kyle's going to be ni FLORIDA next year. I really hoped that maybe I would be able to have a good year with him this year, something he could remember and think about when things got hard, but it's not turning out that way. I just want it to be perfect, I want to make it perfect for him, but it's the complete opposite! arehjkasdkahd!!
I guess I'm kinda stressed right now. I miss my friends, and I miss Kyle, I miss my family when we didn't argue all the time, and I miss being in Shelton.
shadowrainstorm · Sat Sep 24, 2005 @ 04:17pm · 0 Comments |
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