will f i c t i o n get us through the night?
Ok....I am about ready to stop breathing,I'm so stressed out because of people.
I just spent the hour or two on the phone with Lacey because of some s**t that's going down.Not only that but I'm about ready to strangle her older brother Josh.Then like half the world is expecting me to magically fix all their problems,I feel like a prisoner in my own home 4 out of 7 days of the week.My aunt and uncle are so far up my as they could clean my teeth,I'm once again having panic attacks almost every day,I am about ready to kill all my fan girls,I can't breath half the time,I'm almost not allowed to be there for Lacey,Heather my older Sis to be is talking about moving away and abandoning me here,my love life is far from perfect((But then who's isn't)),And now it's sounding like my aunt and uncle want me to break up with Lacey.I've gotten so stressed out that I've started coughing blood again but now more fierce than ever.Everyday it seems more and more like I am not going to live past 30.....I WANT TO SHOOT MYSELF!!!But i won't.
And I'm supposed to deal with all this and at the same time get at least all B's.
This is all bull s**t...I may not be able to handle this emotionally but I'm starting to think less and less that i will be able to handle it physically either...
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c o n v i c t i o n , get us through the night.
