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Well, it happened again. Hopeful and heartbroken. The other day I spent a good portion of the day over my ex-girlfriends house, jsut to hang out since it hadn't been a while. I took this time as a test on my heart, to see if I was truly over her finally. I was so wrong. Within moments of just playing video games, we also start to try on some of her cosplay costumes she had made, we played dressup with them and they were all kind of too small on me so I looked really silly. But in the midst of this silliness, all of those feelings flooded back. Then it happened - She got a phone call from her ex-girlfriend, asking her to go bowling, and then I was sort of dragged into it. Her ex asked me a few questions that made me feel uncomfortable like, "so how long have you known each other" and "how long have you been in love with her?" and things like that. At the end of the night, he were all playing cards in my ex's basement and I guess the two felt comfortable enough to talk about how firm my ex's boobs were, and then the ex girlfriend started poking our ex girlfriend's chest, and our ex was letting this happen willingly. I'm not sure if it's because they were just so comfortable and felt my feelings wouldn't be affected, or this girl planned to do this on her own because she knew about how my feelings were still strong, but I came home last night feeling just as depressed as I had been when we broke up a year ago. I'm not sure about how I'm going to deal with this, but hopefully I'll get over it soon.