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A week from now. A year without my Grampapa. It's been a long one, so far.

With my mother finding out she has breast cancer, it's been a hard-hitting reality of how close of danger I am because of my genetics. Since I had this epiphany, I am working to improve a lot in my life.

One thing I did was dump my crazy-a** job. Being told I am not "communicating effectively" because I used the word "sparse" and someone got confused? Lawl. I'm smarter than my boss. This job has negatively affected not only my attitude towards the job itself, but then has also effected my marriage, my friends- most of my relationships. 9 years with one company getting nowhere- it's time to move on and get happy.

Since then, I have been hired by Macy's. I start in the next two weeks, and I am looking into financial aid to finish my college degree in Business Management. So far, there is a lot going on, but I will have to wait an see where this leads. I am taking a $2.50 and hour paycut, but I think retaining my sanity makes up for it xp

At the time I was considering quitting, my husband and I had a very long discussion. It was time to go on vacation and reconnect. I wanted the time to consider my options to make sure I was not making a rash decision. Again, 9 years with a company certainly molds your perspective.

I spent two fabulous weeks away from it all, and went to Otakon. I joined up with some fabulous friends, and we had a blast. After Otakon, My hubby picked me up, and we spent a week in Delaware. That was fabulous. My skin's still a little sensitive from a sunburn, but it was worth seeing the dolphins riding the waves on the coast :3

Afterward, I put my two weeks in at Vg's Food and Pharmacy on Friday. August 29th. It was the first day of the rest of my life heart

As it stands, I am trying to make up for a lot of things that have happened between my friends and I. This was another time to reconnect, and I am glad of it. I am damn lucky to have the friends I have, I tell ya.

August was a month of many changes with myself, and with my life. I am hoping more will come through September, such as getting the ball rolling on my financial aid for college, re-organization of my home, improving the quality of my life.

At this time, I have little thought for the bitter ones around me. Given that there has been a lot of stupidity over the past few months, there is none I regret. I can't regret, just move on. With all of my wonderful friends and family around me, I have the best support anyone could ask for.

Right now, my attention is turned to my mother. She has so many obstacles ahead...She's started chemotherapy, radiation to come soon after. Her main issue is she is still grieving over the loss of her father, my Grampapa, and he passed from complications of cancer (pancreatic) himself on September 10th, 2007. It brings tears to my eyes the long road we have ahead, but it's a path not tread alone.

My hubby said he was going to shave his head bald-shiny if mom lost her hair. My dad and brothers are considering the same. I am even thinking about it. It's a bridge I will cross when I get there, I suppose. The one gift I want to give my mom is to take the step with her to stop smoking. It's a nasty habit, and an expensive one, but one she and I can do together. Remember that support I was talking about? That's right. It's going to be a family venture.

As it stands, there is a long road ahead. This much is clear. We shall see what comes from it in the end heart

Xya, signing off.