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Face Down In The Dirt
People disgust me so much. Especially those you trust to never replace you and to never betray you, and end up doing it anyway. Yeah - That's happened to me. It's happening right now actually. The shittything is that the person that I've been replaced with is someone my best friend even said they hated. Funny, huh? How one moment you think you know someone, and the very next second everything goes into reverse and you've found yourself in the Twilight Zone of your own nightmare. Also, the person who's doing the replacing, my best friend, has been denying the very fact that they stated they hated the other person. Totally shitty right? Exactly. I'd rather be face down with a bullet in my head than have to listen to another one of the lies that I'm fed from this person. It's insane. People are so hard to trust. All this hate, angst, and anger built up throughout the years has taken a toll on my mind, but I don't think that's the reason I hate so many people and things. They are the ones that give me a reason to hate them. Their antics are so ignorant and their words mean absolutely nothing. I sometimes wish that they'd never exsisted. Maybe then I'd like more people and things. Anyway, back to the main issue. I just don't know what to do anymore. I can't talk to this person because everytime I do, the conversation just goes straight in reverse and I'm the damn bad guy.There's no getting through to this person, I guess I'm up the creek without a paddle. Whatever, been that way for years anyway. I'm sure something will happen that'll turn things back around in my direction.
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