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Its geting harder everyday now I dont know why it been a year since she left me. I thought I was over her. No I know I was. Then whut is this pain is it the lonelyness taking its toll on me. The emptyness its filling my heart and slowly killing me..... but why? I want to be alone I would rather be alone and die sad than ruin someones life wiht my problems. Whuts wrong with me? death is the only thing that can ease my pain it seems............................................................ but whut if I have sumthing important to live for. Aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! I hate this life, I hate this feeling, I hate my self!!!!!!!!!!!! But why?