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the pain is out bleeding within out of control theirs no one left for me to hold but yet im still breathing i am still alive but i cant keep from wondering will i survive the partys are no longer fun the boose dosent help me sleep anymore instead i stay up at night wondering why my life is like this and will i survive i smoke my cigaretts to relive all the stress but when their gone the pain is still here the pain is unbearable i can no longer stand it oh how i wish to be freed of this miserating pain its driving me insane i cant control it like when i cut my wrists cause then at least i could control the pain the days are growing colder and the end is near i have lost my soul im no longer myself one of these days i shall be gone and when that happens you will truely understand my pain was so unbearable it took my hope away but im still breathing for now but oh i wish i could stay