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I'm feeling kind dark right now...I'm not really as happy as I used to be. I feel darkness, but its not like it matters. I hate myself, and I don't know about what to do with all of my other problems, like I used to. Its becoming all too much. I don't feel like I used to, I don't even allow myself to cry anymore, because I then think of myself as weak, and I have to show everyone that I'm strong, and not weak, though it does get hard. I try to make it to where everyone likes me, but then it almost all backfires on me, and then people look down on me, or are mad at me, and don't like me anymore. I fooled myself when it came to love, I'm still fooling myself. It doesn't even really matter anymore, I don't feel anything, and I don't let myself think about that much, so I don't get hurt. I'm so broken, and I'm costantly protecting myself. When is it all going to stop? *sigh* I guess no one will know until it happends.