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Si-saw
I just don't know anymore. Things once familiar are now hazy with doubt. My sleep schedule is more twisted than Charles Manson's psyche. I enjoyed my only day off this week today and by "enjoyed" I mean "slept through". More and more I starting to feel Jeth is right, that I am just a bi-polar f*****t. Which makes sense. And if ANYONE were to tell Jeth that I said he was right THEY WILL BE CASTRATED WITH A RABID TIGER. Don't ask me how but by the Lord Madonna I will find a way. I'm looking for something, I can fell it. I don't know what I'm looking FOR, but I'm looking. A search without a goal is a hard task to accomplish. So besides the random way out in left field statement I've been very introvestigative lately. No that's not a word but for anyone who knows roots then they should be able to comprehend what I'm trying to get across. I'm becoming comfortably numb, both metaphorically and literally. The dark clouds have to pass at some point, otherwise my life will be overcast forever (and I like to have a nice tan every now and again). Rawrg, why is everything so damn confusing. This is infurriating. All the damn time, I hate this standstill. I've been listening to my music a lot and some of it's about to make me cry, while some of it makes me want to lay down and die. Now my hand feels like a thousand needles are pricking at alarming speed. Custom Robo has been going well. I'm back to where I was before my game got wiped. It's off to the Robo Cup on Ecephalon Island. I wonder if they have any good parts for sale. Back in my reality, it's really hard to walk let alone stand with only one leg. And I mean, one leg. Not holding one up, only one. Trust me it sucks. At least I have an idea of what it'd be like. I need to get rid of my distractions, to get to work. To actually do something. I've been very sore lately, in body and mood. Getting pissy over every little thing. It's weird. Snaps of anger, I don't know where it's coming from. What's really complexing is that lately I've been trying to be nicer. Just as a gesture of change. Been dreaming again. This time it was a quest or some long sojourn. Can't quite remember. That's all for now. Bi-polar f*****t signing off.
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