For now I will post my current ponderment (a word that spell check says I made up):
It seems that every time I visit my account on dA, I end up feeling guilty. It reminds me that instead of sitting around lazily chatting about RPs, I should be working on my own artwork. And yet it never seems to make a difference. I see these amazing people able to do such amazing things. They aren't much older than I, some are far younger. I simply feel guilty, sorry for myself, and return to typing crap up here.
In the end I know I'm only hurting myself, further handicapping my abilities. Yet I do nothing! Sometimes I get out a pad and pencil and begin to sketch, only to become annoyed with my incompetence and give up. The thing is that I used to draw only to enjoy the simple pleasure of it. Suddenly it means so little. It's... sad.
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I do not plan on going anywhere with this. In fact, until a couple seconds ago, I didn't know Gaia Journals existed. So here it is. My life in a nutshell. I hope you enjoy my mindless rants and pitiful thoughts. Please, don't take them seriously.
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