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heeeelllloooo sorry about the last blow up i was pissed off and i got everything wrong

its just mike doesn't talk to me anymore ever since lindey came in the picture...
and i was jelous and i needed someone to yell at cuz my life is scrwed and no one likes me and i guess im..... never mind oh and i got a poem and don't think im emo cuz im not.here it is.

What happend

He looks lonely...so am i.
Wheres his army? not with him...
We've been betrayed.
It happens...i guess.
Who do i love?
Who loves me?
No one!
What happend?
Where is everyone?
Certainly not with me...
I miss him
help for i am alone very alone.

And i got another or more.

The Real Me

foolish heart looks like we're here again
same old game with plastic smile
don't let anybody in
hiding my heart ach,will this glass house break
how much will they take before im empty?
do i let it show, and does anybody know.
but you see the real me
hiding in my skin,brocken from within
unveil me completely
i'm loosing my grasp
there's no need to mask my frailty
cause you see the real me
painted on,life is behind a mask
self-inflected circus clown
im tired of the song and dance
living a charade,always on parade
what mess i've made of my existence
but you love me even now
and still i see some how
wonderful beautiful is what you see
when you look at me
you're turning the tattered fabric of into
a perfect tapestry
i just wanna be me
and you love just the way i am
wonderful beautifulis what i wish you could see in me.


Love For a Love

I search for a love
But i never can find one
i like some cute guys but they don't like me
i can't imagine what the girls out there feel like when there husband or boyfriend beats them.
but i don't know anyone like that so i don't know
love...is hard to explain i pray every night for a true love
even he isn't helping
but i know it could happen soon
even when i don't feel like it will
love so love for love.

Does anybody hear me
Does anybody see
does anybody even know im going down today
with the shadow of our steple
and all the lost and lonly people
im sore i'll be going down today
yes very far down today
and of course no one cares for me cuz im never good enough for them
im afraid if i cry that first tear
that all the tears will not stop raining down
im even scared if i stand i'll fall down.
help me hear me see me
why won't you just love me like i would love you?!

Scared

I'm scared of what might happen tomarow.
Because of "what i did"
some one hurt me in a way that no doctor,no scienticed... nothing...no one...can fix me
it broke some how and i think you know how
no one is there...i'm terrified
i'm being tourcherd in my head
i'm screaming, i'm bleeding...
what am i gonna do now!
nothing cuz no one can fix me
i'm alone,hurt, and unfixable... i'm screaming
i'm dieing
i'm bleeding for eternity.
what happened
help me
help me please!

there like it im not emo and i might be a tint of goth but i just wrote the last one because.... idk y i wrote that. so read love it and comment them.