It's amusing to me. See, i do this thing that whenever a time falls onto the date of my birthday i make a wish. and whoever was around me would be asked to make one for me. you get it?
well, i used to always try to remember to make a wish for dan dan between 7:01 and 7:02 mainly because no matter what i always get confused on when exactly his bday is. i've asked ppls a hundred times and i just always get confused cus i cant remember the bloody date. anyway, at random times i'd remind myself to make a wish at 7:01/02. but id always forget until after it passed. and then today, i glance at my cellie to check the time and whaddyaknow? it's 7:01 pm. So i make a wish. and i feel happy. i wanna tell him, hey! i remembered to make a wish for you. all happy and whatnot. my usual 5 yr old excitement mood.
but i dont tell him.
and i realized something. ive deleted him from almost everything. from gaia and facebook. i've erased his phone numbers. forgotten his aim. your general process of deletion when trying to forget someone.
but there are places he's not deleted.
like in here *points to heart*
and in my mind. (hence the change of my journal title to 'shadow in my mind')
and i cant just erase him. rewind and start over. he may not remember, and i vaguely do the details, but i remember when he was there at some very crucial moments. ive ranted, and vented, and sobbed, to him constantly. he was there for me. no matter what, i cant erase that. i couldnt. i wouldnt.
so i wont.
Ily
Song: Dil Laga Na-Dhoom 2
Mood: neutral
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