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My Uncle:
I’m really depressed right now, I think I know the reason. It’s because my uncle has been gone for two months now, gone as in passed away. He died on January 23rd, 2008 at Aspiris Wausau Hospital, due to complications of an anyersum. He was always at family get togethers and parties and would always tease us about forgetting to give him a hug. He was always making people laugh and complaining about everything, but now that he is gone, we can’t hear him complain anymore. He loved eagles, and the Packers, and Nascar. He was the greatest uncle a girl could’ve wished for, and I miss him so much. Every time I hear the song: "Tattoo" by Jordin Sparks, it reminds me of him and me, about worrying about everything I did and how hard it was to be strong to leave the hospital. I know he is somewhere watching over my family, and I know someday we will see him again, but for the moment it’s difficult to deal with the pain of losing a loved one. To have someone who you thought was going to be there for an enternity and then losing them so suddenly, it’s difficult. We try, my family, we try to get over it, and move on, but we will never be fully healed from this. I know I’m emotionally broke, I can’t really control my feelings anymore, and I know I tend to space off and go into a safe world only I can go to. People ask me if I’m alright. I smile and say of course, just spacing. I can’t tell or show my closest friends my weakness, I don’t want to be seen as weak. So I hide myself inside, locked up, so I can continue to be strong for those I love. cry