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I can't figure this out. Everyday, I find myself feeling so empty, useless, meaningless, worthless, and just about everything else that fits there. I've desperately tried so hard to figure out what this emptiness actually is but I just can't figure it out. It hurts and I can actually feel the pain from it, I can feel it but not describe it, Why? Why don't I know? What exactly is it? Why does is pain me so? Its the same dead broken feeling night after night with no explanation as to where it comes from. I don't know why but it seems that I find myself receding further and further back from the world. I'm losing my trust in everything that I ever regarded as true, losing faith in the alleged goodness of the world. All of it is fake, non-existent and untrue. Everyday people only further prove this to me. I want to find someone who will show me that there is something more, something to look forward to, Someone who will restore my trust in this world. I want someone who won't treat me like useless crap, someone who will acknowledge me and care, I want someone who will stop me from feeling So Empty