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since when I was little people used to pick on me and bullied me and when I went to elementry school alot of high schoolstudents used to jump me alot and so on so when I move into Ohio I decided to stay quiet and not talk to anybody and I was into sports and I used to play sports which helps me get me out of trouble but the problem is that some females are very mean I mean I've been torture by alot of them and they always hurt me I mean the hardest part of my life is geting a girl that will love me back but I believe that no girls doesn't want me because all of there excuses and I just hate that so I just don't think that I will ever get a girlfriend and all I think about is cutting my self thats all I ever think about and yes I do cut my self I cut my self since my first ex broke up with me which is about 2 years and I m still cutting I don't think that I will ever stop cutting because I just don't think that the girls doesn't care enough to be with me.