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crying I'm depressed, I REALLY like this one guy. More than I have ever liked a guy before, but I just dont know. . . He is my friend but dosent seem to like me any more than that! It dosent even seem like he accepts me as much as he accepts his other friends. It hurts so much when I hear him talk about his girlfriend or a girl he likes. . . It really hit me hard today when he was dared by his friends to ask all his friends that are girls out, when he called me it was so hard to pretend not to like him. I just want him to be happy and if Im not involved in that picture than I wont get in the way, but it rips me up inside. I may not be that old but it makes me so sad, I always have to fake a smile so no one will know how I really feel. When he asked me who I liked it hurt me so much not to tell him, and to see the hurt in his eyes when he says he's one of my best friends and I say that I still wont tell him. I think that might be why he never answers my texts anymore . . . while he will answer anyone elses. It brings flowing tears to my eyes when I think that he dosent want to be my friend any more . . . Well thanks for reading this far, I know Im a whinning brat but oh well.