I'm in a really bad place right now. I feel so alone. It's like anything that I want to happen, it just won't... I have such great friends and they're the best thing that's ever happened to me but it's not enough. Nothing's ever enough. I know it sound so selfish but I just can't take it. No. I feel so horrible. I want to run away and just keep going, never come back, never come back. Why am I always so sad. I just need the help. I try to accept the things I can but I still feel so empty. I feel so numb. There's just nothing inside me. I can't help it, I just can't take it. I just wish that things would end soon. I don't even have the strength for suicide,. Where did I leave myself along this path. When did I become this... thing. I feel so wrong, Nothing's right, nothing's right. Please help me. I think I need to go back to the hospital. I hate these horrible flashes in my mind. I don't want to be so unhealthy. And as I'm sitting here with tears falling down from my eyes I can't feel anything. And yet I feel everything. I feel so ******** up. When will this end? When will this end? I need you now, I need you, this is my ******** hour of need. When will someone come and help me? When will someone realize that I'm on the edge, about to let go...
About to let go...
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