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Today I woke up. I needed you more than you can know. Well not you as in a bit of online space,but "you" as in a guy I am hoping is reading this. I wanted to call you,but I was afraid. I wanted to be with you but I was alone. I wanted to hold you,but here I am cold. I can't stand living without you. I keep a little piece of you in my memory. Maybe it is more than some people can have in a lifetime,because I know that when we loved it wasn't the cheap off-brand love,but the designer kind that is worth so much. It wasn't the cheesy or sleezy kind,it was the love a child gives. I didn't know why I loved you, I didn't know how long it would last,but I loved the feeling you gave me. Now I am smarter ;I know I will love you forever. I know you won't love me back,and I know that I will never have you,but I'm okay with that. I still have my memories;I feed my heart from them. They gobble them greedily without thought of using them all up 'till there is nothing left. I kept you there and I won't let you go. People tell me to get over you,but it isn't my choice. If I had it my way I would never have met you,because of the pain it brings me trying to forget you.