Dear Jornal... Today after I woke up I realized my jorney through hell had taken me through some of the hard choices I ever had to make. Through it all my convictions had maintain a strength that I never thought I had. I think the trail of crumbs may have been taken away by rats but the s**t they left behind will surely tell me where I'm needed to go... oh s**t I'm speaking in analogies again... I need to work on that.... maybe after leaving this depressing place and going home my true nature will come back to me... haha... nothing like the truth to remind you of everything you lost over time..... I need to send that package off to her still... s**t!!!!! maybe I should just give her the things I wanted to give her and say, "Yeah this is what was supposed to be an 'I love you gift... Sorry it's five years too late... better late than never kid...'" Yeah maybe she'll buy into it after the first couple of times of reading the letter.... So yeah.... It almost seems like the night time has given me back the comfort I used to get from it... It almost seems like everything has come crumbling down around me and yet at the same time nothing has changed... Almost like a tornado never quite making contact with a town even though that is where it is supposedly heading... GOD DAMN THE ANALYGIES!!!!! OK enough of this bipolar s**t.... I'm tired and maybe just maybe things can get better once I get some sleep in my system and I pack more of my things up....
Cornel Jenasis · Mon Jan 14, 2008 @ 06:43am · 0 Comments |