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I feel so heart-broken
knowing that the one I love
has changed
from something he was born
to worship to
something I loathe with a passion

I know I should be happy
that he decided to change
but why Goddess
why did it have to
be that

I sit here broken-hearted
wondering why I am in
tears
wondering why do I feel
so betrayed

Have I fallen that far
Have I fallen that hard
that I can't accept
what he wants to be

Maybe I have fallen
from his grace
become bitter and cynical
in loves place
Is it because of what has happened
in the past
when I chose to follow a different
path and was scrutinized
by my own peers

Have I fallen that far
Have I fallen that hard
that a part of me can't accept
what he wants to be

I have always been accepting
and understanding of
his weird little ways
but this time a part of me
screams "LET HIM GO"

Is it because of the past
when I chose to choose
a different path
that the words of my fellow
peers made me bitter and cynical

Why can't I let go of the past
Of all the things that happened
That have haunted me
for all eternity

And yet a part of me wants to let
go of him
and yet I sit here crying
wondering what I should do

Have I fallen that far
Have I fallen that hard
that I have to choose
to let go of the one I love
or to stay with him no matter what.