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today i found that im a lil depressed......you may know that im more down than i am up.....i use to be a bright lil girl but now i hide in my own shadow afraid of the world and my future. do i deserve to live?
what is going on?
am i really a person that has the glory in there hart or can have glory?
am my myself?
i dont know who i am now and what im doing......
im known for the person who's always down and no one can help...
i lay on my bed at 11:00 at night with a dim light over my book as i write down each word i think......
i try to think of good things i accomplished so i made this list:

i beat the chin up record of 8,
i past my reading class,
i passed my English class,
i passed physical education,
and that was all i could think of at the time....
i got so many friends i know that some think im nice and some think im a total moron but deep down my my pitch black heart i know that i have some nice friends that would care for me if i was sick,
if i were to die,
if i were to live,
if i were to be a nobody,
if i were to not be there friend they would still care.
are you one of them?
do you care?
please comment and answer if you want....

~red~