Well I did it....well not entirely. Jen did it for me. But he was apparently surprised. I'm glad he didn't forget me like Jen said. Sometimes....I just don't know what to do. I really do like him. But I really don't think he likes me. Judging from his reaction. I at least tried thats more than I can say for anyone else. Nikki didn't try to talk to Nick. I would do it for her, but I don't want it to end badly for her. Although she knows what I'm going through when I can't ask a guy out. She fears rejection. I am scared that he won't be my friend. I don't want to lose anyones friendship. I have lost too many friends. Its depressing. and hurtful. I enjoy friends company. Maybe to much. Ashley thinks it was wrong, but screw her. I can't help that I like Clayton. Thats the first time I have ever written his name. Everytime I think of him my heart beats in my chest like it wants to pop out. Maybe I should go to his house and wish him well. Or maybe he felt sick from the shock of me asking him out. Or mabye he doesn't like me and he wants to avoid me. Or he can't really stand me he was just being nice. Why do I try? Anthony broke up with me to get me out of his life. I knew he didn't love me. That b*****d just lied to me. He is probably with another girl, taking her virginity, just like he planned to do to me. I can't believe it. I seriously thought he loved me. Oh well...can't expect him to love me for how long he did. 8 months is a long to be with someone like me. I should just stop dating. I'm sorry. I just don't need anyone else to hurt me. I have been hurt one time too many. I will just leave my heart in a box. It will be much safer. I mean I will be lonely, but I would rather be lonely that suicidal. Look out singlevile here I come.
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