As hard as I try, I know, there is no trying to please people. The only thing I ask for is understanding when I hurt someone. I never do it on purpose I just wish people could understand that. Recently, I poured out my heart to this person and all I wished for was the kindness I remember him having...the only problem is, I got a different side of him....who knew that the pain I would feel for hurting him would only get worse. I know that I hurt him, but I just wish I could just see an appology accepted with a smile face even if it was forced. Knowing there is nothing I can do, the only thing I can do is to either bring my feelings to the surface, let them out and move on by trying to forget him or I could bury my feelings deep inside where they won't see the light of day and then move on by forgetting him until they explode out many years later...well I guess I'll have to figure it out as I go along.
To be honest, I never expected him and I to be friends for that long. I'm just glad that I was around him for the worse part of my life, now to try to heal from these old wounds. Goodbye my friend. I wish you the best in all of life, and I wish you every happiness.
Love, from your ex old friend,
Eulanda <3
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