Thoughts are trubble some arent they? I realy wanna go to sleep but I cant because my brain wont stop thinking. Thinking about everything every single little thing its infuriating. So I figure if I write and write untill all my thoughts all my thoughts come out. You may notice that ill repete certain phrases and words well like I said, I typing down my thoughts not a goddamn english essay. como es? si that was random so random infact I want a cookie ill get one. No wait were out of cookies.... noooooooooooo!! godi hate that.
Ive beenn thinking alot about things I shouldnt. Like Quay, and Ben, And james. Pretty much everyone except for matt. But go Matt is annoying somtimes. I miss Fabian too. I never thought id ever miss anyone so much. im setteling into the "what if" syndrom what if this what if thjat... Thinking I can or could have changed things. I know Im realy just fooling myself but I like to dream. Sadder still is that I have to that Ms Crazy-about-horses-and-realy-just-plain-crazy for all this recent thinking and self-realization part. If I didn't perpetualy dose-off in her class i wouldnt have these crazy half-a** half awake dreams that are super real feeling. God I hate her. right now I hate everything....
LittleGirlBlu · Wed Oct 17, 2007 @ 04:52am · 1 Comments |