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Ever get this feeling where something bad is about to happen and no matter how hard you try to think it's due to silly paranoia the haunting feeling remains and just keeps getting stronger?

Well that happened to me last night. I kept getting these extreme fears that my girlfriend might be acting unfaithful as she went out with a guy friend. I trust her and so I kept trying my very best to convince myself it was all in my head. Needless to say, I didn't get much sleep.

Well when she came home I was glad as my mind would rest. At least that is what I assumed. No, the nagging feeling still persisted.

Well today, this afternoon, after having lunch with her I told her of my slight insecurities. I wanted to get it out of the way as it had been bothering me. The look on her face was the one I was not looking for. It was one of guilt.

Now she's telling me she still loves me; but then she tells me she is confused and sees me only as a best friend; she then says it's over; then says she doesn't want to leave me. My head is spinning so fast the rest of the world stopped spinning. I don't know what to think right now; I don't know what to do.

I need some help because I feel so goddamn alone and confused right now...