AUUURRGGG!!!!!!*clasps hands to head*Im so confused,distressed and depressed...why?!Beacause just when my heart began to heal itsself over my ex,he toys with my emotions once again!!!He stops by for a friendly visit to tell me that he's going to break up with my good friend Wendy,and i ask why......no answer...than akward silence.I hate akward silence,so i tell him how i squirted my tube of lip balm in some dudes face,i also tell him i was sad because it tastes good.yes tasty lip balm....so he takes a piccy of ed from my wall,THAT IS FORBADE!!!!!ED IS MINE!!!!!(hes from fma) He plays keep away from me and i had to crawl over him,in a skirt stare and i still couldnt reach....then he thrusts the piccy out of his hand grabs my wrists and kisses me with enough force so i couldnt pull away and when i tried he wouldnt let me!!!!it remained that way until my eyes rolled into the back of my head and my eyes litteraly fluttered themselfs closed.naturally it opened old wounds and i fell in to kissing him back!than he brags about being better at ddr then me!so i challenged him,in the arcade it was even worse.He walks up behind me while im watching my BEST friend play ddr and hugs me,grabbing my hand and moves it in front of his pants making me slightly graze a certain part with my finger tips!!!!!! scream i swear it was like an anime shiver....it started out at my feet and moved faster than lightning to my head making my face as red as a strawberry!i almost got a bloody nose!then he takes me home,and we hang in my room for a little so i can(resentfully)help him with his japanese homework,then he does it again only this time he pinned me to my bed!he kisses me and so do i...once again im wereing a skirt stare his hand travels up my leg and this time i got to stop him before he got that far....(not like it hasnt)i had to stop him 4 times!so then i escort him out to his truck,i get my hoodie and headband from him and i turn to walk away,he grabs my hand pulls me back and hugs me and wispers softly into my ear "I miss you" and today he made me feel as if all he did was a lie!!!beacause he let some blonde chick hug him and do all this s**t like there dating!the worst part was he was hugging her back like he did me!and he was ignoring me..... cry so i know i was crying the entire way home and out of despare i had to releve my self of this sorrow and i cut again for the first time in almost a year.please PLEASE dont hate me..... crying
rinrinfu · Sat Sep 15, 2007 @ 02:10am · 0 Comments |