well my Father recently walked out on me and I haven't been able to stop crying. I miss him so much. I came home after going to my grandfathers veiwing and decided it was time to get my Father's lamp he made me out of the shed. earlier this year I decided I didn't want it but I'm so glad I still have it. I can still remember when my daddy gave it to me, He looked so happy when he gave it to me. he had the biggest smile on his face and he said"so what do you think golden girl?" and I didn't know what to say so I just smiled. he was so happy I didn't want to tell him that it looked funny. I miss my daddy so much I can't stop crying over him, damn I'm crying while I write this.....
It's even harder lookin at pictures of my daddy, I went through my picture album and looked through and took one out. The one card my daddy gave me that I actually kept I put the picture in, it was a picture of my daddy and my brother the two most important guys in my life! I put that card in the back of my poetry journal that I carry with my everywhere with me. That card is right next to a picture of me and my emokity. I just wonder if my daddy will ever come back, I miss him so much I just wish I'd been a better daughter. maybe that's why he left? I want my daddy to call so bad, I want to hear his laugh, and be able to talk to him. I just want to know if he's ok. I haven't slept hardly at all, no more than an hour or so if even that much and I haven't eaten hardly anything it all comes up anyway so what does it matter, kity if you read this I love you and I'm sorry but I have gotten better the last day or so I swear by the lord and the lady!
this sucks so bad to loose my father and grandfather I just wish I could talk to my daddy I just wish he'd at least said goodbye but considering me being is daughter I can see why he didn't call, why would he? he's better off without me, but I miss my daddy so much it's tearing me apart inside...............
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