...I'm not on as much as I used to be...For some reason I'm not attached anymore...and..and it scares me. I dont know what I'm going to do without some people who were always there. Im not saying I suck at life, I just suck at doing things on my own. Im tired of this..I just dont want to get hurt ANY more. I'd rather get hurt upfront rather online...it makes me feel worse about myself and I already think lowly too...*sighs deeply* from now on, I'm going to be more more shy around people. I dont care if I know you. Just prepair..It sucks. I hate it. I cant stand getting hurt Over and ******** over. Especually when I know its going to happen, but now where or why. I knew it would happen. But now I want to know if its completely over. Im guessing it is. But whatever. I never get what i want or need. It NEVER happens so I dont care. ******** this s**t. Im tired. I cant stand this s**t. I cant stand keeping things close knowing that Its going to leave soon. So...I'm done. I am not going to be friends with anyone now. My whole AIM, MSN, SBC list are ALL down to 3 people or so. I cant stand it. If I take you off my friends list, dont be surprised. Sorry. I just need s**t for me. Just once I want one damn thing. But its not coming, so why try. Hurting myself seems to help at the most. So thats fine. Whatever makes me feel better Ill do it. RIght now I can say I'll kill someone if it will help me. sad I'm ******** up. I Know it. But I need things and people dont want to help me or want me to have things I want. Whatever. :....
RABiD ONiZuKA Community Member 
|
|
Community Member