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AMYS PAGE:
Aug 5 2007 4:51P

hey babe, back from campin
hows it al goin
i miss you
ill ttyl
call me please

<3 ya

kris

you can message her or comment her tell her you are home from camping and you cant even mail me or call me or whatever
or maybe just maybe even answer your phone...
what are you to busy talking to her???
you know what
FRIENDS is ALL we will EVER BE
it seems to me because you just wont GIVE UP!!!
I AM SURE IN THE HELL DONE WITH THIS
you and HER
you know what
DATE HER ok
BEHIND TONYS BACK
it didnt stop you from making out with her BEHIND his back
you guys CAN DO IT AGAIN
So you might as well GO AHEAD!




******** it all
im so sick of feeling horrible
im tired of being upset over ashley and keisha and amy
im so freaking tired of all of this
im on the edge of just ******** killing myself my legs look like ******** ground beef after finishing with them and they still wont stop bleeding
im not calling out for ******** help i did all that bs a long time ago and im tired of waiting and not having anything coming after me
its at the point where it DOESNT ******** MATTER!!
i have people yeah
a few
very few
but what im looking for just cant ******** be fouund
i ******** over the ones who would have given anything for me
and who id give anything for wont do s**t
so yeah

ASHLEY!!
i hope you have fun with your new boyfriend
the way things are going it seems well never really talk to eachotehr again
your new ******** future husband i hope all your freaking fairy tales come true while im stuck here in hell
thanks for abandoning me
******** me over
and never coming back im never coming back
fine
BE A b***h
move on
WHAT THE ******** HELL DO I HAVE
im not even on our friends anymore
what the hell...


Keisha.

ive ******** you over beyond all belief and yeah you can be pretty obsessive sometimes but regardless ive treated you like you dont nearly deserve. im so ******** sorry you have no clue, i dont know what the hell i can do...i really freaking dont, i want to make it better because im not feling etter at all right now but yeah...i dont know!! what the ******** to do with myself or you anymroe


rae b.
your a ******** b***h, end of it

sakura
im sorry
your right
im an abusive worthless a*****e i know and i accept it
s**t
i dont deserve to ******** be alive
i know
you dont ever ahve to talk to me ever agian if you dont want to
thats what rich seems intent on doing

AMY....

i wrote notes to you almost every single day all school year i tried to be there whenever i could, i put up with everything tony did and siad and even when i just thought he was in our way i thought that mabye for just a second youd get out of that abusive and slow relationship for soemone who could treat you right and give you anything you wanted, i kissed you and ******** up and ******** over friends for it and then i did it again and again and at the time i was the happiest ive been in ******** years, i still try to call you all the time, i still send you things pick up stuff for you that reminds me of you ive never been so dedicated to one person in my entire life! i barely see you but still do my best to stay in contact and let you know taht i care, still
more and more theres tony and you want him apparently way more and always more then me
you thought that you might lose me in the beggining and i told you youd never lose me
well you wont but that doesnt mean it doesnt seem like ive lost you, you want him,,, have him, im worthless im NOT OKAY IF YOU WANT TO KNOW IM NOT ******** OKAY you have a drawer full of me and does one bit of that express that im okay i have your pictures all kinds of s**t and im not okay amy im not okay at all
im here im lonely
im done just waiting for the past FOREVER FOR LIFE TO GET BETTER
RAE ******** ME OVER ASHLEY CHEATED ON ME AND ******** ME OVER SO I STARTED TO DO IT TO EVERYONE ELSE
and if your heart doesnt lie with me then so ******** be it
im here
i care
im always here
but im not waiting
im laying here staring at the wall
not existing
not smiling not laughing
just not being here
to no fault of your own so you know
but ive ******** up
i cant do this anymore
i cant live like this anymore.......................you use to be the reason i woke up
now i just dont wake up
because no MATTER WHAT I DO
its not gonna change no mater how many note how many hearts
it doesnt matter
your gonna stay with him and its fine...mabye hes not so bad
mabye he does love you and care for you bring you flowers and listen to you, mabye hes better then i could ever be
i dont know
call me........if you ever need something i guess


cait
your always here and ill always care about you very very much

kat
thankyou for letting me help you out and not ******** up your life


mom dad nick
thankyou for putting up with me dammit
i love you guys so much you have no clue, im so sorry about the ulcerative colitius the seizures the everything, and nick....oh my god im so sorry...i just am and know that i love you and never meant to hurt you

conner...
wtf
i prob deserved it
and i know what it feels like
holy s**t have i done wrong
consider it free

john
s**t...theres a fucing list to write here
but know i love you
and ill never stop
we had somthing at one point i thought
but im just not good enough for that

to all:
im worthles im an a*****e
im a lost causenogoodwasteoftime
but thankyou for being there
im going to bed and avioding walking for now
i love you



and i mean it...
goodnight