RAWRdanibby (3:11:19 AM): Last year, I knew this kid named Steven.
RAWRdanibby (3:11:49 AM): Steven was ********' amazing and I liked him..a lot.
RAWRdanibby (3:12:29 AM): I always tried hinting to him that I liked him, but I guess he never caught on.
DannyxScaryKid (12:13:46 AM): Yeah?
RAWRdanibby (3:14:43 AM): ..So I continued liking him and s**t..
RAWRdanibby (3:15:06 AM): I knew he was going through a lot to I offered to walk him home one day after school.
RAWRdanibby (3:16:10 AM): We took our time walking and he was really quiet so we went to an alleyway and sat there for some privacy.
RAWRdanibby (3:16:19 AM): It was broad daytime so nothing happened.
RAWRdanibby (3:17:24 AM): He told me he liked this boy but he wasn't entirely sure on how he felt on him.
RAWRdanibby (3:18:05 AM): He started crying.
He started to say how in love he was with him.
How he knew he would never be able to be with him because he was too good for him.
DannyxScaryKid (12:20:45 AM): so then what happened?
RAWRdanibby (3:22:28 AM): Well.
RAWRdanibby (3:22:49 AM): He just kept on crying and wouldn't stop.
RAWRdanibby (3:23:07 AM): I tried calming him down but then he started telling me about his past
RAWRdanibby (3:23:23 AM): and how he was always raped and beaten and how he couldn't take it anymore
RAWRdanibby (3:24:23 AM): How the guy he loved was always there for him abd he tried hinting to HIM that he liked him but the guy never caught on so I just listened.
RAWRdanibby (3:25:04 AM): and*
RAWRdanibby (3:26:37 AM): I just remember me wanting to cry and hold on and just tell him that he didn't need that guy.
And I wanted to blurt to him that we should just be together.
I remember the sound of the cars passing by so he was talking loudly so that I could hear him.
I remember smelling his cologne that rubbed off on me when we were walking..
RAWRdanibby (3:27:44 AM): Then I remember him just staring at me and he stopped talking and jumped on me and hugged me and wouldn't let go.
RAWRdanibby (3:28:36 AM): When he finally let go
RAWRdanibby (3:28:59 AM): He just stood up and backed away a bit and smiled at me like I told a funny joke or something..
RAWRdanibby (3:30:30 AM): And he said exactly this:
"Daniel, your amazing. Your the best friend anyone could ask for and I would do anything for you including getting out of your way. I want you to know that the boy I love is you. You may not feel the same and that's okay. I'm sick of life and I'm sick of not being able to be with you."
RAWRdanibby (3:30:46 AM): I still can't believe I remember all of that in exact words..
RAWRdanibby (3:31:38 AM): ..I just smiled at him with watery eyes because I was excitedly ready to tell him I loved him too..
RAWRdanibby (3:33:08 AM): Do you want me to shut up now?
DannyxScaryKid (12:33:34 AM): No, keep going.
RAWRdanibby (3:34:17 AM): Soo.
RAWRdanibby (3:34:29 AM): Before I could shoot up and hug him
RAWRdanibby (3:36:14 AM): He pulled out a gun and looked at it.
I was in shock. I didn't know what to do and my body wasn't allowing me to move..
I still till' this day feel like it's my fault.
He said he loved me, closed his eyes, opened his mouth, inserted his gun in his mouth and shot it.
RAWRdanibby (3:36:54 AM): I wonder what he would have been doing right now if I moved and stopped him
RAWRdanibby (3:37:26 AM): If I would have just got up and stopped him and told him I loved him back.
RAWRdanibby (3:37:47 AM): He didn't even get the chance to hear me say it back to him...
Kid, we all miss you.
Especially me.
I love you.
R.I.P STEVEN WHITEBERRY
Especially me.
I love you.
R.I.P STEVEN WHITEBERRY
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I'm soo sorry...iK you dont know me...and I dont really know you...and Ik sorry might not mean anything but I have been recorving from a death in my family actully...6 my best friend and I were haveing arguments and we stopped talking the last word she herd me say was I nver want to hear or see you again...about a week later she and her mom,dad,little sister and older brother all got shot and killed...then to top it off my brothers 19 year old gf died in a car crash...I'm really sorry and if you ever get back on gaia and read this...i would <3 to talk...I hope you feel better...
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Merna