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"What the ******** am I doing? Am I living my life? Am I just... not really living at all?"

Has any of you asked yourselves that? Has anyone actually stopped and wondered if what they are doing in life is actually what they want... or something they are forced onto something, and are in denial... or even ignorant about it?

What am I talking about? Well, I have been given time off studies to notice something... everyone seems to be sleep walking. Yes... sleepwalking. Literally in their everyday life. Day in, day out, they are out to do soemthing... some sort of... monotony. They work 8 hours everyday, doing the same s**t, at different days. Some enjoy their work, some don't.

I asked my mom one tme if she likes the job. She replied "its the only thing I can do." Wow... bravo. what a reply. Now, I am fearful to what I can do in teh future. Am I, gonna just be a drone? Do the same s**t at different days? Will I just turn t a zombie?

I try to do different things... I want to try different stuff. I want to stare at the night sky and wonder if we're alone. Or are we just some rat labs to the higher beings? Well, whatever. We have our life. Its only one, make the best of it.

Don't fret about your looks and bullshit. You really should appreciate more about yourself. America... the whole world has a culture not to make you feel better of yourself. They got products to make you beautiful, make you smell better.... advertisements with their super gorgeous models... super thin.... you know the story, people.

Don't take s**t from others. They got their own life. Sure, they can help you lots on your journey... but it really comes to you whether to do something they tell you or not. Don't let anyone control your life.

Take more time to see whats around you. Find fascination in life other than work, money, power, women, men, sex... and try other things. A midnight stroll in a park, looking at stars... listen to the wind... nature watching... there's a whole universe out there, and here we are... limiting ourselves with materialistic things that we dont really need.

There is always another side of the coin. Have you explored that side yet?