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I'm really ******** tired of everything of everyone I just
dunno why i can't be happy? it kills me but i mean maybe its my own damn fault i mean. i dunno what the hell is wrong with me. I can't say. but i mean ..things just sux. I feel like i dunno. NOthing i don't feel anything. i didn't want to get to this point again pero ya nimodo aqui estamos.
fria
fria
fria
and i hate it cuz i noe i could be good to someone. love them, adore them, be there for them. that is what i am good at giving love but nobody seems to want to give it as freely. I dunno maybe its cuz certain things are too important to me. like love and my fantasy of it. it has to be perfect or otherwise im not satisfied. i just want to stop thinking for awhile. thankfully im going away for awhile, back home were things are sort of safe. i jsut hope fate doesn't rier its ugly head on me or ill really really be screwed. and that scares me the most, more so that i have a way out. i don't want to take it but its the black door allt he way at the back of my mind. where ill really be happy.. either way. thats it. thats all i got. i hate people and there selfishness, i was better once i really was....