No way out
You ask how my day went
Do you even need to ask
Your not stupid are you
You already know the answer
My day was horrible
I was depressed all day
School for me has become a nightmare kinda like a prison as well
Everyday I suffer
I am bothered teased and humiliated
I want them to suffer too but how
I lay down dreading the next day at school
Some nights I even cry I have nightmares too
I wake up with tears in my eyes and sweat running down my cheeks
Other nights i can't sleep
I lay there awake
I think of a way to make them suffer too
All I can thiink about is a wayto make them suffer
The way they make me suffer
I want them to feel and go through the same pain that I do everyday
My parents aren't much help
If I come home crying all they say is they'll give me a reason to cry
I feel like I am not allowed to express emotions
They don't understand
They have forgotten what it's like to be a teenager
I wish someone would understand me
Why do I feel so different
Why am I the target for everyone to torture at my school
I have thought about suicide
But of course I didn't have ther guts to do it
If I were to I would do it with my dad's ...
I go into my dad's closet
Yea it's still there
I lay in bed excited about the next morning
I had finally found away to make them suffer too
I stared at my clock all that night
Since I couldn't sleep
I heared my alarm going off
I slowly got up remembering my plan
I quickly got ready fdr school
I sneaked into my parents room and grabbed my surprise and slid it into my bag
I ran out of my house that day as fast as lighting
I somehow managed to control my temper untill my 4th class
When a girl I had always liked in my history class named Kaylee asked me out as a sick joke
At first i didn't know she was joking all I could do was stare
Her friends walked up giggly
I knew something was wrong with this picture
Then Brian walked up to her and put his arm around her and said "she was just messing with your gay head do you think she would ever like you"
Everyone laughed
That was it I couldn't take it anymore
Before I had a clue what I was doing I heard a gun shot
I had shot him
Then I yelled "Nobody move or I'll shoot"
I was shocked and happy to see my cruel classmates faces
I started shooting in every direction
I couldn't control myself
Everything became a blure
I ran out ofthe room with my gun
As I was running I tripped
And as I was falling
The gun went off
I watched in horror as the bullet hit a young innocent girl
The next thing I knew there was blood everywhere and many sirens
I knew I was in trouble so I shot all the cruel peers of mine that teased me for so long
I couldn't stop running
I saw the police behind me
I ran but thewn surrendered my gun and got in the cop car
Now here I am 3 yrs later
I am now 18 and have a life time in prison
All because of my abusive parents and peers
And of cousre my stupid actions
I hope you learned something about teasing
And will try and prevent it in your school in the future
By
Nicole
aka
lil nic
this poem is NOT about me it's just about a random person and random events that happen everyday that i wanted to bring to your attention
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