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It's June 17th, summer hooray!
Or aleast it should be 'hooray', but I'm not happy, not at all. I miss alot of people already. Not exactly the people, more along the lines of the idea of the people.
And the people I really want to know, are just getting irrated by my constant complaining, When I try not to complain, it just somehow leaks. TT-TT;
It's been going on like this for the past 3 years, the summers that is. I'm hopeing that maybe if I go to public school I'll have alot of stuff to do, and alot less time to complain and whine. But who knows, I might just wind up with alot more stuff to complain about and alot less time to think it over! GAHH
ANYWAY the point is I need to change something, I'm thinking maybe I should be more mean, atleast that's what tony says,(then again its..tony. o.o) HMMMM....
It's really tough for me, I don't have as much grit as alot of people, and I let to much stuff bother me, I need to toughin' up! scream
Blah blah blah, I keep rambling. -.-'
I don't want to be like Cam, ones enough. >.>' But she keeps rubbing off on me! Look at me, all i'm talking about is myself.
ANYWAY, back to the point. I need to change, change completely or I'll become an old cat lady with no friends. ;__; The question is change to what? I'm use to rping so I think I can pull it off, definitely. Well there are alot of choices... hm... I'm not talking about stereotyping wise, not at all.
I'm talking about as a person, I need to be a certain person, I know I do, and it's not the one I m now. Infact even I hate her. gonk
I take it it's from the many years of anti-social-ness aka being homeschooled.
It might sound odd, but if it's what I have to do to be looked at with admiration, Then I guess I have no choice. I NEED to be a admirable person, so everyone will see that all Christians arn't jerks... The question remains unanswered.
Who is this amirable person I need to (pretend to) be?
 eruma-chan · Sun Jun 17, 2007 @ 11:35pm · 4 Comments |
